When your XXXX gets home this afternoon, I will be able to take you to XXXXXXX. He is paying his rent today, and I'll be able to fill gas tank. I have to pick up XXXX and his XXXXXX in the morning at 6AM for court tomorrow at 8am. So, why a little short this month not to mention bill's getting higher because of things left on. We need to use then shut off or I'll have to make some real drastic cuts else whereas. You notice prices going higher and higher. That also means gas, electric and water also increases with each bill. When I use more than I did the year before then electric is really higher because of the price increase. Compared to this time last year it was $130.00. This months $312.00. That is just electric only. You would not like to see water & gas and trash. Even when trash is not placed out, I am still charged. Gas was nothing last year as I normally shut it off all summer. This should give you an idea why we need to save. As this does not cover even cable or the internet even and those are the future cuts if we can’t start shuttering stuff off after using them. As prices increase there will be less money for a lot of things as I spend all my retirement just on bill’s now. That even has been cut with required medical insurance called medicare that all seniors have to pay for even if they use the VA as I do because of my service time. Meaning my check was cut down another two hundred a month. I am told I am one of the highest paid among others and that is why I am given increases tax ways. If I am one of the highest paid then why am I broke all the time? Don’t drink or gamble or even afford to go any place, but because I own property and also need to keep it insured as well as pay taxes then is why I have nothing left because no one wants to help and conserve. Oh motels are now starting to go out of business as well. Why? Because who wants to pay more than $500.00 a month for a one room box and no place to cook etc. Fast foods will be joining the increase soon as well. Had to blow off some steam as am pissed because my cat has also disappeared and never been outside in her life as she was bottle fed as a kitten as mother was killed as she was born. So, with that also gone and I did ask everyone to please be sure that doors were closed and windows also as she would end up dead some place. Which I suspect has happened. So, never think you have the market on stress or situations called life as even at my age and experience of not caring. I still feel people should respect and be concerned about the only thing an old man cared about even if it is a damn cat. I did get use to a lot of things over life and today still see my very best friend in dreams or nightmares being shot in the face next to me. Seeing hundreds of others unknown to me killed or already dead before my arrival to wherever I was told to go. Outspoken and caring as well even if others feel I am mean! I have lived with night sweats now for over forty-five plus years for protecting my country as every man is to do before going on with life. But, asked to take them some place when I know they were taken there just yesterday. A waste again in my opinion, but what the hell. You asked and I told you my feelings. First time ever asked for gas money. Surprised? I am sure the others were to until it got to where the price was just to high so they made other arrangements. When asked to much then I raise my price so as others will do it cheaper. If I need the money so bad then why not do it? Because I really don’t need the money, it’s the respect that I am asking for is all. After all it is my house and all I ever asked was to protect my damn cat. Couldn’t even do that. Sure I am going to die one day, but afraid? No, after all why be afraid of something that you have not first hand experienced. I have experienced hunger, pain, sadness and everything life has to offer. I see idiots giving up because they lost a loved one though death, divorce, but I won’t give up on all of you as I know what the future holds for all of you as the rest of the human race. But, while living in my home which I do like, please show just some concern by cleaning up after yourself and helping others as well. If you know where my cat is, then tell me as I don’t want to find her in the trash or back fields as I will search there in time as well. Makes me sound as if I suspect someone wanting to get even because they pay to much already for what they get in return. Well, one thing I have learned and that is never to trust no one even if there a close member of your family even.